Sunday, January 29, 2012

zen moment of the month: hunting

It's been over two years since I last held a shotgun in my hands and walked the fields of Kansas in search for pheasant.  Two years doesn't seem that long, but coming from a family that goes hutning and fishing like it's a job, two years is an extremely long time.

I didn't go out hunting at all last year, even though my parents were so kind and bought me a fishing and hunting liscense combo, because at the time of opening weekend for pheasant rolled around, I was using a wheelchair to get around.  There was no way in hell my mom would even think about letting me take a two hour drive out to the farm to walk in misery for a weekend.  Although I was upset I couldn't go, I know deep down inside that it was the best choice we made. I woudn't have been able to last half a day out in the field if I had gone.

I went out to the farm with my dad and my uncle to give it one last chance since it was the closing weekend for pheasant and squirrel.  I hadn't been able to go out in November for the opening because of the show and other things going on, it just made it impossible to take off of life for three days.  Unfortunately, we didn't evens see a single pheasant while we were out there.  It was pretty disheartening since it was the first time I had been out int he field since I had my hip replaced.  We did see a few deer though, and a couple of squirrels that we managed to lose sight of before we could get out of the truck and get to a place where we could have a clear shot at them.

When we realized that we weren't going to get any squirrels from the property down by the creek, we set up a small target on one of the dead trees that had fallen down during a storm a couple of years ago.  Dad let me shoot his .22 revolver, the one that I've been working with a lot over the last month; my uncle I think was a bit surprised at how well I could shoot, since I managed to get a bullseye on my second shot.  Then, my uncle was ever so nice to let me shoot his semi-automatic 9 milimeter.  I didn't do too terribly bad since that was the first time I shot a 9 mil at a target, and only the second time shooting a 8 mil in general.

Although we didn't get any game on our trip out there, or to even shoot my shotgun, I still had a lot of fun.  I enjoyed being around my dad and uncle, listening to them banter back in forth retelling stories of when they were kids.  I also really enjoyed the simple act of walking down the road, blocking for my uncle who was in the field.  Riding in the backseat of the truck as we drove nearly every road in Pratt county, I was in awe of how simple it was out there compared to the area around Mulvane.  My favorite part of the entire trip was when we went to the old creek bed that had dried up for the winter and made our own shooting range.  My dad asked me to go to the truck and load his revolver.  He's never asked me to do that before, it made me so incredibly happy to know that he trusts me with his beloved .22 revolver.

Link of the Day: Adventures of 2012 I haven't been on the interwebs too terribly much over the last week, so I don't have any new gems for you to go visit, so I'm sharing my adventure blog.  My goal is to document 2012 in a way that is special since this year has a lot of special things in store for me.

days until MDT: 6
days until Valentine's Day: 16
days until graduation: 110

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

spirit week

At our school, when we have our homecoming games whether it be for football or basketball, we have a thing that is commonly known as 'Spirit Week' where there are certain themed days during the week where everyone dresses up to show our spirit for our school and team.  Normally in years past spirit week has consisted of the same five days that have been used in the past homecoming weeks.  This year though, for winter homecoming Student Council got...well, I don't know how to describe it except for interesting.

One of the biggest changes to the spirit week is how they tied in each day with the homecoming game on Friday; we play the Andale Indians this year.  Monday was "Tie up the Indians" where we were encouraged to either wear a tie or tie-dyed shirts.  Tuesday was "Sink the Indians" where we were encouraged to wear a water flotation device to school. Today, Wednesday, was "Cripple the Indians" where we were encouraged to "dress like a senior citizen or come hurt".

Last week when the signs for spirit week were plastered around the school, I got a bit upset over the Wednesday theme.  They used "dress up as a senior citizen" as a cover for the "come to school crippled" version of the plan.  I had kind of forgotten about it until today, when I was walking into school and realized that people weren't just wearing band-aides on their body for the hell of it.  I brushed it off for the most part, but when people started using the word "crippled" in an extremely demeanor way, I got pretty ticked off.

Well, I'm not the only one.  I guess a parent or someone from the community called into one of the local television stations and got the channel to start an investigation.  I don't really know what to think of all this, except that I wish whoever came up with the theme would have used some common sense and shown some sensitivity.

Link of the Day: lolcat.com Just because we all need something to make us laugh when we're bored.

days until MDT: 10
days until Valentine's Day: 20
days until graduation: 114

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Hashi and I

I don't think it's really set in since I found out a few years ago when I was diagnosed with a medical condition called Hashimoto's disease (which we commonly refer to as Hashi around our family) that the feelings I have when I don't take my thyroid medicines really start to change my mind set.

I was diagnosed either at the end of freshmen year or sophomore year with Hashi . I don't remember what exactly caused them to draw a strange amount of blood one day at the doctor's office, but they did. I remember my mom being freaked out when they called and left a message for her telling her she needed to call the doctor ASAP.  She was worried that they were going to diagnose me with diabetes since she has Type I diabetes and my dad with Type II.  When they told her I had Hashi my mom was relieved.

Hashimoto is a simple run down explanation is just the thyroid glands not producing enough (or as in my case, none at all) hormones.  For Hashi, in most cases Hashi is simply treated by the patient taking a thyroid replacement pill every day that levels the hormone levels to where they need to be.

One of the possible symptoms of Hashi is fatigue and a sluggish feeling.  I've been really bad since I was diagnosed about taking my medicine every day. It got to the point where the pediatric endocrinologist that I was seeing got extremely upset with me and lectured me for twenty minutes once when I went to see him.  Within the last week I started using my pill planner again, making sure I take my vitamins, pain medication and thyroid pill every day.  I managed to go an entire week taking all of my medicine. Then yesterday and today I forgot to take them since I was running late.  Let me tell you, fatigue and sluggish feelings is what I've been feeling the last two days.

It kind of shook me a little when I realized that the weird feelings I've been having yesterday and today have to do with the fact that I didn't take my Hashi medication.  I guess I just find it odd that such a small pill can make a massive difference in one day.  Also, considering the idea of me moving out in August means that there won't be anyone to tell me every morning to take my medicine, it just kind of scares me a little.  And maybe that's what I need.

Link of the day: Bad Hall Director I found his blog not too long ago, but I've read back several months and I literally end up laughing by the end of every single post.

days until MDT: 11
days until Valentine's Day: 21
days until graduation: 115


go green!: an introduction of sorts

Notice: I've decided to change the dates of this blog series to the fourth Tuesday of every month. The next post in this series will be on February 28, 2012.



It has begun to become more and more evident over the last few years that earth is not as healthy as it should be.  Healthy in the fact that the green house effect is becoming an increasing problem as well as the carbon foot print that we give off in our every day lives.  With this being said, this is the main reason why I wanted to start this blog series for 2012.  Not only am I hoping to inform others, if at the very least just one other person, but to also show that helping our environment and ultimately earth isn't impossible for someone to do on a daily basis.

This blog series will cover a variety of things pertaining to the environment, earth and possibly a small portion of space.  All of these things are being effected by our daily lives and how we live them, all of which circle back around to the fact that the environment, earth and space affect our daily lives and how we live them.

I am by no means an expert in this field, I merely find this subject of interest and find it extremely important to help preserve earth for the betterment of years to come.  With this, I will assure you that I will do my best to find reliable resources to share with you on things that I find throughout the year.

If you have any questions you want answered, either on my views on things pertaining to the enviornment, or something specific looked into, drop me an e-mail at jjohnsonmulvane@gmail.com and I'll see what I can come up with.

My whole goal with this series is to help not only myself figure out a way to preserve the world around me, but to help spread the word of how important these issues are.

Monthly Mileage Week
January 17, 2012 - January 24, 2012
233.9 miles

Monthly Mileage Week is something slightly random that I decided to do.  Every month, for eight days, during the same eight day span I'm tracking the miles I drive.  I'm hoping by the end of the year I can see what types of things vary from month to month though the variables are quite large.


Sunday, January 22, 2012

interesting days

When I said earlier that you might not see much of me until spring, I didn't realize how true that statement was when I made it.  This semester is really going to be a test of patience, hard work, and commitment among all other things.

I have seven classes at school and then another class at the Learning Center (which I normally just call TLC) that is online based. They're all pretty easy classes, course wise, but the homework gets piled up on top of each other is what gets me.

Earth Space (ES) is easy in the sense that the topics we cover in class really interest me.  I don't mind the homework that's assigned because it helps me understand the material and is normally quite easy.

English 3 (E3) is a true test of patience.  Being in a class with juniors really has me wanting to bang my head against my desk every day.  Not only is the maturity level slightly different (or in the case that is my class, a lot different) but the teacher is different than I remember. I can't wait until we finish this editorial paper and start working with The Great Gatsby. I'm more than excited for that to come my way.

Advisory (A) is a twenty five minute class we're required to sit through every day but Wednesday.  It's basically a study hall, and is in my mind quite redundant since I'm more tempted to talk to my friends than actually do homework.

U.S. History and Topics normally we just call it Topics (T) is basically just U.S. History from 1950's to current 2012.  It's not bad, we just do a lot of book assignments, which is starting to get extremely boring. We also just got assigned a book report, which I am entirely too excited to do.

English 4 (E4) not much has changed from last semester, I'm still not sure what I think.  This is by far my most challenging class.

Mathematical Thinking (M) I honestly don't know what the purpose of this class is.  The teacher rambles too much and the kids in the class are extremely annoying and immature. I would rather suffer through Algebra II than sit through this all semester.

American Studies (AS) basically this is just the other half of T, except it's another junior class that I have to make up because of my hip replacement last spring.  Not too terrible of a class, but it's pretty much the same as T.

Algebra II (A2) this is actually been easier and more enjoyable than M has been thus far.  It might be because I'm in a quiet room working by myself and self teaching from the text with help from the teacher.

This past week has showed me how hectic it's going to be this semester.  I was ill the week before for three days so I was still catching up on that and then keeping up with work from this week.  On top of that, we started rehearsals for the mystery dinner theatre on February 4th, so that's going on.  And then, I'm starting a gym routine this week.  It will only get busier too, with college stuff starting I may be taking more trips to Winfield.  I'll start to sort through graduation things. Not to mention when the spring show starts I'll have four rehearsals a week for three to four hours each night.

On top of all this, I'm squeezing in writing time.  I'm trying to write 750 words a day on 750words.com that is also going to be time spent writing on my Secret Book.

Goodness, I rambled, didn't I? That's what happens when I go to the gym, bike five miles in thirty minutes, then go to a youth group meeting for two hours to come home.  I'm extremely tired and I still have a small mountain of homework to accomplish tonight.  The feeling though isn't too bad.  I much rather be busy and overwhelmed than in a terrible amount of pain that I can't control, and be overwhelmed.  A year ago today, I couldn't have been doing everything I am today.

Here's to hoping I'll be seen somewhat soon! And lots of sleep too, if I can fit that in somewhere.

Link of the day: 750words.com It's been helping me pre-write a little bit here and there for my Secret Book. Definitely a good tool to have. I'm challenging myself to write every day in February on the site.

days until MDT: 13
days until Valentine's Day: 23
days until graduation: 117

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

update: go green! postponed

I just wanted to give a quick update and let you all know that I'm still alive from my day on SC campus and that the first Go Green! post in the Go Green! blog series will be postponed this month until the fourth Monday, January 23 due to the overwhelming work load this week from my classes.

As for normal blogging, I'll be back with a few short posts over the next couple of weeks including an overview of my time at SC and hopefully a book review.

If you recall my "resolutions and things" post, I left something out.  I'm focusing on my school work, all other things extracurricular and internet activities are all coming behind my school work.  I gave up forensics so I could do theatre this semester, and even this comes with the promise I made my mom that I won't attend a rehearsal if my grades are suffering. I'm applying the same thing to things I do on the internet.  I'm cutting my time on the internet during the week down to something that I can still manage to keep up with things but yet still be able to focus on school.  With this being said, I may not blog much from now until the spring, but I'm not taking "a leave of absence" or anything.

I normally don't do a LotD or my countdowns on update posts, but I will today.

Link of the day: FlashCardMachine.com Last semester when I found this site, I used it all the time to study for my classes.  In fact, I'm working with it right now to study for my history tests.

days until Valentine's Day: 28
days until graduation: 122

Friday, January 13, 2012

forgive me?


I owe you an apology. You know as much as anyone else that I hate the phrase "I'm sorry" because when people normally say it it's filled with an empty meaning.  I want you to know deep down inside that I truly am sorry.

I know you're probably wondering why I took this direction in going about this, but it's been very evident that I can most strongly get my emotions out if I write them rather than speak them.  When I try to speak sometimes about something that I've been meaning to say, I clam up and freak out and never completely get around to saying everything that I set out to say.

Over the last couple of months I haven't really been a friend. Or at least a friend in a way that I want to be.  I've pretty much lost contact with you in mid October and never really tried to talk to you until December.  I have to admit, my reasons for this are selfish.

I think you can understand the parts I'm leaving out here, of the things that I've been going through over the last year.  Between moving into town, trying to sort my emotions out about my surgery and then the beginning of senior year.  I don't know what it was that made me get so overwhelmed with the things going on in my life. It might have been the work load I had in school, or being so involved in the musical, home life, or even the fact that I was still working through adjustments to post-hip replacement with the new pains I was experiencing.  Regardless of what it was or when it started, I became extremely overwhelmed and didn't know how to handle things.  I didn't sleep well at night and often laid in bed for hours just constantly thinking.

This is the part that's hard for me to explain, even in writing it's difficult.

It's safe to say that you probably know I have a hard time asking for help.  I've always felt like it's just me and up to me to figure things out, that I shouldn't burden anyone else with my problems; even my closet friends that I can call my brothers and sisters.  I just didn't know how to approach anyone.  I was just trying to get through a school day and rehearsals to go to bed and do it all over again.  I was just trying to survive the semester.

I hope that after reading this that you can understand some of what was going through my head and we can work this rough spot out in our friendship and move on.

I do understand though, if the damage that I've done is enough that you don't want to stay friends; but I just had to get this out, just so you know why things happened like they did.

I wish you the best in everything you do, always remember that.

Link of the day: A Resolute Unicycling Muppet I laughed so hard when I watched this my parents wanted to know what I was laughing at. Definitely made my evening.

days until 01/15/12: 2
days until Valentine's Day: 32
days until graduation: 126

Thursday, January 12, 2012

by myself

It's official; I've been internally freaking out this afternoon about this weekend.  What's so important this weekend you might be asking; well I'll tell you.  I'm visiting my college by myself for the first time and staying over night too.  Why am I freaking out? Because this is the first time I've done something like this, purposefully putting myself in a position where I'm going to meet a bunch of new people all at once and not know anyone when I get there.  I'm a friendly person, but when I'm by my own in situations like these, I get oddly shy.

Don't get me wrong, I feel comfortable about making the 45 minute journey, though it might be longer than that considering the weather, down to Winfield but the fact that I'm doing it all alone.  It's not even that, but in the greater picture it's showing that I'm finally growing up and going off to do these things by myself.

After all these years I've been wanting to get out and do things on my own, go meet new people I'm getting the chance to do that before I'm thrown into that situation every single day in the future.

In a way it's kind of frightening, thinking that in a couple of days I'm going to be meeting people that I'll be working alongside of for the next few years.  I still can't wrap my head around the idea of what this weekend will bring me.

I'm sure though, as my mom as told me several times, that things will be just fine.  I believe her, because things work themselves out in one way or another.

Link of the day: 750words.com I started using this site last night, just to help me brainstorm on the Secret Book and I find it really simple and easy to use and it keeps track of everything you write and has a special statistics page that I just love, and it keeps all your writing private.

days until 01/15/12: 3
days until Valentine's Day: 33
days until graduation: 127

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Zen Moment of the Day: History

I'm sure I've mentioned this before, but I really love history.  Last semester the history class that seniors are required to take, civics, wasn't anything I'd like to do again.  In reality it wasn't the class itself, but how it was taught that me struggle through the semester.  This semester, I have to history classes, T (United States Topics, deals with U.S. history from the end of World War II to present day; this is the other required senior history class) and AS (American Studies, junior history course that I have to retake from missing it last year when I was out for surgery); both of them are fantastic, mostly because of having the same teacher that cares not only about his students but about helping them learn.

As I sat here and finished my assignment from Monday to turn in for T, I realized that when I'm working on my history assignments I'm completely relaxed.  I have no problem reading from a textbook and answering analytic questions about events that took place.  Maybe I have too much of having no problem doing it, I tend to have at least one page longer in all my assignments because I elaborate so much on everything.

There's something about being completely indulged in what I'm reading that I just naturally relax.  It's really nice, especially since I've been ill and have been stressing about getting caught up in my other classes, it's nice to be able to just lose myself in one or in this case two classes and enjoy myself.

Link of the day: Quote of the Day I love reading the QotD on GoodReads. Since I don't know if this will continue to link directly to this specific quote I'm going to type it out.

"After all, reading is arguably a far more creative and imaginative process than writing; when the reader creates emotion in their head, or the colors of the sky during the setting sun, or smell of a warm summer's breeze on their face, they should reserve as much praise for themselves as they do for the writer - perhaps more."
~ Jasper Fforde

days until 01/15/12: 4
days until Valentine's Day: 34
days until graduation: 128


Tuesday, January 10, 2012

scattered thoughts

Right now I don't feel like doing much of anything except sleeping, sitting on the couch and watching TV or watching YouTube videos.  The last time I felt this bad, not counting the flu last month, has had to have been at least a year ago.  I've got chest congestion, sore throat, massive headache and I'm on the verge of tearing my ear canals out because I can feel the fluid pressing and thus making me scratch at me ears every few minutes.  Chances are I have a sinus infection, I'm not new to having them, I've probably had one each year for quite a while.  I was going to go to school today because I'm trying not to miss any school this semester, but my mom and dad made the decision quite clear last night that I was staying home today. And it was probably a good idea they said so, because I feel even worse than I did last night when we got home from the finacial aid meeting.  Now I'm just waiting for a couple of hours for when my mom comes home to get me to drive me to the family doctor.

Yesterday wasn't too bad, if I completely ignored the sore throat, beginnings of a headache and ears hurting.  It was a productive day for me, I managed to finish my ES worksheet packet and begin my outline for the next section, I figured out what I wanted to do for my E3 paper, used the school computers for the first time in roughly a month and managed not to yell or hit said computer.  I completed the majority of my T assignment, and I would have finished if it I did what all the others kids do and rush through it and not take the time to be thorough in their answers.  Went to E4 and...well, we won't talk about that right now, it makes me want to go back to bed. Actually did an actual assignment from the book in my M class.  And then in AS we were just watching Uncle Tom's Cabin. For me, that was a productive day, and thus far every day has been similar since term started.  I'm thinking that this might continue, and I hope so because then I keep up with all my classes.  Plus I have that A2 class online, but I'll talk about that some other time.

Also. Yesterday the casting list was posted for the mystery dinner theatre that the thespian club is doing in February.  I auditioned for it last Thursday and had kind of forgotten about it since then.  I didn't get the role I wanted, but I got cast in it regardless.  I'm a twin lunch lady; the other actor is one of my good friends; and the best part about this is the fact that one of us is evil and the other is nice.  Needless to say, I'm extremely excited to work on this show!

Well, I'm sure I've rambled enough nonsense for the day, I should go take a nap now.

Link of the day: Back to December I enjoyed the original song by Taylor Swift, but when I watched this earlier, I have to admit, Luke and Ingrid's cover makes me love it even more. Well, actually, I think I just love their cover better.

days until 01/15/12: 5
days until Valentine's Day: 35
days until graduation: 129