spirit week

At our school, when we have our homecoming games whether it be for football or basketball, we have a thing that is commonly known as 'Spirit Week' where there are certain themed days during the week where everyone dresses up to show our spirit for our school and team.  Normally in years past spirit week has consisted of the same five days that have been used in the past homecoming weeks.  This year though, for winter homecoming Student Council got...well, I don't know how to describe it except for interesting.

One of the biggest changes to the spirit week is how they tied in each day with the homecoming game on Friday; we play the Andale Indians this year.  Monday was "Tie up the Indians" where we were encouraged to either wear a tie or tie-dyed shirts.  Tuesday was "Sink the Indians" where we were encouraged to wear a water flotation device to school. Today, Wednesday, was "Cripple the Indians" where we were encouraged to "dress like a senior citizen or come hurt".

Last week when the signs for spirit week were plastered around the school, I got a bit upset over the Wednesday theme.  They used "dress up as a senior citizen" as a cover for the "come to school crippled" version of the plan.  I had kind of forgotten about it until today, when I was walking into school and realized that people weren't just wearing band-aides on their body for the hell of it.  I brushed it off for the most part, but when people started using the word "crippled" in an extremely demeanor way, I got pretty ticked off.

Well, I'm not the only one.  I guess a parent or someone from the community called into one of the local television stations and got the channel to start an investigation.  I don't really know what to think of all this, except that I wish whoever came up with the theme would have used some common sense and shown some sensitivity.

Link of the Day: lolcat.com Just because we all need something to make us laugh when we're bored.

days until MDT: 10
days until Valentine's Day: 20
days until graduation: 114

interesting days

When I said earlier that you might not see much of me until spring, I didn't realize how true that statement was when I made it.  This semester is really going to be a test of patience, hard work, and commitment among all other things.

I have seven classes at school and then another class at the Learning Center (which I normally just call TLC) that is online based. They're all pretty easy classes, course wise, but the homework gets piled up on top of each other is what gets me.

Earth Space (ES) is easy in the sense that the topics we cover in class really interest me.  I don't mind the homework that's assigned because it helps me understand the material and is normally quite easy.

English 3 (E3) is a true test of patience.  Being in a class with juniors really has me wanting to bang my head against my desk every day.  Not only is the maturity level slightly different (or in the case that is my class, a lot different) but the teacher is different than I remember. I can't wait until we finish this editorial paper and start working with The Great Gatsby. I'm more than excited for that to come my way.

Advisory (A) is a twenty five minute class we're required to sit through every day but Wednesday.  It's basically a study hall, and is in my mind quite redundant since I'm more tempted to talk to my friends than actually do homework.

U.S. History and Topics normally we just call it Topics (T) is basically just U.S. History from 1950's to current 2012.  It's not bad, we just do a lot of book assignments, which is starting to get extremely boring. We also just got assigned a book report, which I am entirely too excited to do.

English 4 (E4) not much has changed from last semester, I'm still not sure what I think.  This is by far my most challenging class.

Mathematical Thinking (M) I honestly don't know what the purpose of this class is.  The teacher rambles too much and the kids in the class are extremely annoying and immature. I would rather suffer through Algebra II than sit through this all semester.

American Studies (AS) basically this is just the other half of T, except it's another junior class that I have to make up because of my hip replacement last spring.  Not too terrible of a class, but it's pretty much the same as T.

Algebra II (A2) this is actually been easier and more enjoyable than M has been thus far.  It might be because I'm in a quiet room working by myself and self teaching from the text with help from the teacher.

This past week has showed me how hectic it's going to be this semester.  I was ill the week before for three days so I was still catching up on that and then keeping up with work from this week.  On top of that, we started rehearsals for the mystery dinner theatre on February 4th, so that's going on.  And then, I'm starting a gym routine this week.  It will only get busier too, with college stuff starting I may be taking more trips to Winfield.  I'll start to sort through graduation things. Not to mention when the spring show starts I'll have four rehearsals a week for three to four hours each night.

On top of all this, I'm squeezing in writing time.  I'm trying to write 750 words a day on 750words.com that is also going to be time spent writing on my Secret Book.

Goodness, I rambled, didn't I? That's what happens when I go to the gym, bike five miles in thirty minutes, then go to a youth group meeting for two hours to come home.  I'm extremely tired and I still have a small mountain of homework to accomplish tonight.  The feeling though isn't too bad.  I much rather be busy and overwhelmed than in a terrible amount of pain that I can't control, and be overwhelmed.  A year ago today, I couldn't have been doing everything I am today.

Here's to hoping I'll be seen somewhat soon! And lots of sleep too, if I can fit that in somewhere.

Link of the day: 750words.com It's been helping me pre-write a little bit here and there for my Secret Book. Definitely a good tool to have. I'm challenging myself to write every day in February on the site.

days until MDT: 13
days until Valentine's Day: 23
days until graduation: 117

scattered thoughts

Right now I don't feel like doing much of anything except sleeping, sitting on the couch and watching TV or watching YouTube videos.  The last time I felt this bad, not counting the flu last month, has had to have been at least a year ago.  I've got chest congestion, sore throat, massive headache and I'm on the verge of tearing my ear canals out because I can feel the fluid pressing and thus making me scratch at me ears every few minutes.  Chances are I have a sinus infection, I'm not new to having them, I've probably had one each year for quite a while.  I was going to go to school today because I'm trying not to miss any school this semester, but my mom and dad made the decision quite clear last night that I was staying home today. And it was probably a good idea they said so, because I feel even worse than I did last night when we got home from the finacial aid meeting.  Now I'm just waiting for a couple of hours for when my mom comes home to get me to drive me to the family doctor.

Yesterday wasn't too bad, if I completely ignored the sore throat, beginnings of a headache and ears hurting.  It was a productive day for me, I managed to finish my ES worksheet packet and begin my outline for the next section, I figured out what I wanted to do for my E3 paper, used the school computers for the first time in roughly a month and managed not to yell or hit said computer.  I completed the majority of my T assignment, and I would have finished if it I did what all the others kids do and rush through it and not take the time to be thorough in their answers.  Went to E4 and...well, we won't talk about that right now, it makes me want to go back to bed. Actually did an actual assignment from the book in my M class.  And then in AS we were just watching Uncle Tom's Cabin. For me, that was a productive day, and thus far every day has been similar since term started.  I'm thinking that this might continue, and I hope so because then I keep up with all my classes.  Plus I have that A2 class online, but I'll talk about that some other time.

Also. Yesterday the casting list was posted for the mystery dinner theatre that the thespian club is doing in February.  I auditioned for it last Thursday and had kind of forgotten about it since then.  I didn't get the role I wanted, but I got cast in it regardless.  I'm a twin lunch lady; the other actor is one of my good friends; and the best part about this is the fact that one of us is evil and the other is nice.  Needless to say, I'm extremely excited to work on this show!

Well, I'm sure I've rambled enough nonsense for the day, I should go take a nap now.

Link of the day: Back to December I enjoyed the original song by Taylor Swift, but when I watched this earlier, I have to admit, Luke and Ingrid's cover makes me love it even more. Well, actually, I think I just love their cover better.

days until 01/15/12: 5
days until Valentine's Day: 35
days until graduation: 129

BEDD 30: a year in review 2011

I've seen a few other bloggers do this already and decided I'd do it too. There really isn't much explanation needed on this one.

JANUARY: Rang in the new year with a group of close friends and had a blast considering all the stress I was going through with all the doctor's appointments I had been coming out of with no new information.  A few days later I celebrated my seventeenth birthday with my mom and dad before we headed to St. Louis the following week for one hell of an interesting doctor's appointment.  Later then in the month, I saw my surgeon and set the date for my hip replacement; I could finally rest a little easier.

FEBRUARY: I was pulled out of school and stuck on an online program two weeks before surgery and managed to do a fair amount of school work considering how anxious I was for the big day to get there.  February 14th, 2011 I had my hip replaced and of course had some chocolate too.  I was visited by a group of close friends that still to this day I am very appreciative to have in my life and thankful they came to see me that night of surgery when I really wasn't very coherent and probably quite cranky.  I saw a new found ambition in myself that I didn't see before, one that wanted to prove everyone wrong about what they had once thought

MARCH: Nothing too terribly important happened except the recovering from surgery.  I was still working hard on regaining strength and mobility.  I also managed to get strangely addicted to March Madness basketball and became slightly outraged when I couldn't watch my teams play.  Went to the Department of Kansas Wildlife and Parks headquarters in Pratt for the first time ever; got my first hunting and fishing duo license and got to go through the  "museum" with dad.  A visit to Pratt also means eating at Donald's  Diner.

APRIL: I was still working hard, and my continuous hard work was paying off.  Went to SC and did a full campus tour with my mom, up the stairs, around the hill, down the stairs, in every building, around every building, up the stairs, down the stairs and around the hill.  It was such a great feeling to be able to keep up with a 20 year old who was taking full strides.  The awesomeness didn't stop here.  The week after that, I did a two mile walk in Wichita with my youth leader, we didn't stop but once during the entire walk.  Through both of these milestone events, it was just absolutely astonishing that the only pain I had at the end of the day was my calf muscles, and that was only because I hadn't been doing so much activity in months.  I also began driving again after not being able to be behind the wheel since early December because of the medicines I was on.  Also in April, I found several new artists and YouTubers who helped me through rough times; including Ministry of Magic boys, ALL CAPS, Mike Lombardo, Chameleon Circuit boys, John and Hank Green and various others.  Didn't do much fishing. :(

MAY: My mom and I moved out and moved to town.  Adjusting to living in town was a bit rough at first, but I found it easier as time progressed. I enjoyed walking most places, like the two blocks to the library and back.  I went to my best friend's graduation, which really put things into perspective for me; I had a year before that would be me.  And then the heat began.  Once again, didn't do much fishing. :(

JUNE: Hot, hot, hot.  June was the start of the hottest summer I've ever experienced in my seventeen years of living in Kansas.  For me, someone who enjoyed being outside started to prefer to be indoors at all times.  MRC classes started up again, I offered my wisdom and help to the theatre classes.  I got to see all of my family at our annual family reunion that was just far away that we could still sleep in our own beds.  I got to finally bond with Uncle Gale, seeing as he's the only one in the family who has gone through a hip replacement.  The same weekend, I went "swimming" for the first time since surgery and had a blast.  Except for my first time ever on a water slide, and ended up with a minor neck injury.  Giving up going to Girls State for the reunion was a great idea, I don't regret that decision one bit, quality family time is big for me.  Too hot to even think about going fishing. :(

JULY: MRC classes continued onwards, and I volunteered on the days when I could manage to get out of bed on time.  Fourth of July I spent at the nursing home volunteering for most of the day and then into the night as I got to help shoot off fireworks and hand out ice cream to the residents.  The trip to western Kansas to see the Bortz side of the family at Uncle Leon's funeral reminded me at any moment you can lose a loved one, and that spending quality time with the ones you love means more than anything else.  This trip also made me fall in love with Kansas all over again.  The hot weather continues on and so does the lack of fishing trips. :(

AUGUST: The start of senior year finally started with a big bang.  Old Settlers was hotter than any other on record, but it was still good fun because of the NFL booth, even if it ended with cool whip and honey in my hair.  Participated in BEDA for the first time, totally worth it.

SEPTEMBER: Wildcat football was off to a great start with the bashing we gave Pratt.  The musical finally gets a slow start, and last minute I decided to audition for a part instead of being head of costumes and make-up.  Cast in chorus I was at first upset but began to realize that theatre was more than I ever imagined it could be.  I also realized that I could set my mind to anything and achieve it.  Took the ACT for the first time, and managed not to die from it.

OCTOBER:  I learned who my real friends were.  Ate lots of sweets and had even more fun with my theatre family.  Joint pain became frequent; at one point the family doctor thought I might have had rheumatoid arthritis.

NOVEMBER: Attempted NaNoWriMo for the second year.  Got farther than last year, which was what I was hoping for.  Had a few rough patches before show week with my arthritis.  Had a great Hell Week, even if I didn't sleep much or get hardly any school work done.  I bawled like a baby during my speech at senior cast bonding, amazed at how much the people around me loved and supported me.  Had a fantastic show run with the rest of the cast, even if closing night ended in a weird way that none of us can really comprehend.  All that can be left said is Mrs. Batman is there, we all know it even if no one else believes us.  Celebrated Thanksgiving with Bubby, Tammy, Natasha and Robert; a great holiday was exactly what I needed.

DECEMBER: More stressful than I would have ever imagined.  Finished the first semester of senior year with a rough note.  Realized that my future is up to me and that I can't let anyone hold me back.  Celebrated a nice quiet Christmas with mom and dad; enjoyed the family time and mom's good cooking.  Moved with mom back in with dad.

link of the day:  Made In America I don't know how many times I've listened to this song. It's probably in my top favorite 100 songs for sure.

days until Senior Year Part 2 begins: 5
days until I become an adult: 8
days until graduation: 140

BEDD 19: where are the layers?

I would have never thought, a year ago, that I'd be making this type of blog post. It just blows my mind away in a way, mainly because it means that I'm growing up and stuff and things like that.

My senior English class (labeled English IV at our school) is pretty intense, by far my most difficult subject we're throwing maths out of the equation for now.  It's taken a lot of work to keep up, and even now with how much I've missed this term, I'm still behind; but dear God, I never would have thought that I would have learned so much about literature in general.  My teacher, Mrs. Perkins; SHE'S AWESOME.

Every time I read a book I can't help but think about things like motif, theme, symbolism and a bunch of other things that I've been working with for the last several months.  It just goes to show that those things have been pounded into my brain left to stay for forever, or at least until May 19th, 2012.  No I haven't been taking notes on the books I've been reading outside of class, but when I think about a book after I've finished it, all of it just appears in my brain.

The last couple of books that I've read, The Mermaid's Mirror by L.K. Madigan and Where I Want To Be by Adele Griffin haven't been up to par with my reading standards that I suddenly complied over the last few months.  On the surface these two books are good in their own individual and unique ways, but when I look deeper for a layer or two into what the book was supposed to say, I came up pretty empty handed and a bit confused in the end.

I wonder if I'm just overlooking books too much, or if I'm just a crazy loon who reads a lot of books for fun and analyzes them for funsies.  But then again, what if I was a lit major? Is that what lit majors do? Study books and analyze them?

I brought this up to my mom, how I wasn't finding many books that really interested me (also that I really don't care for series).  She told me quite bluntly that I needed to make the jump into adult novels and read some of her favorite authors that I've often questioned her about.  Which makes complete sense, since I often find that YA books are too simple for my reading tastes and don't have enough layers to them.  I've started a couple of David Baldacci books in the past year, but never finished them, but I enjoyed them immensely because of the level of reading the material was.

I don't know what I'm trying to say; but it just goes to show that even after all these years, I still love to read.

Link of the day: Best Fishing Bloopers I found this last week when I was surfing StumbleUpon when I was ill with the flu. My dad was here at the apartment and we watched it together and laughed so hard we were crying. Definitely a bonding moment since we both love fishing. I'm sure though, even if you don't care for fishing you'd find this at least a small bit entertaining.

days until winter break: > 1
days until Christmas: 5
days until I become an adult: 19
days until graduation: 151

BEDD 1: motivation

I'll be completely honest with you. I miss blogging, and I miss it a lot. I just lack motivation. And unfortunately it's not just blogging that I lack motivation with.  I've been lacking motivation when it comes to a few of my classes.  And that alone is really really bad considering that there's less than a couple of weeks left before we take finals and go on winter holiday.  Once again, I'll be completely honest; my grades aren't at their best right now.

I don't know what's happened, I was going strong for about 3/4 of the semester, between actually doing my homework and enjoying the classes; then BAM! I just fell out of it, and it really frustrates me.  After the horrible academic year that was junior year, I was really hoping to get things back on track and make an impression on my transcript for college, but at this point, it looks like it'll be the same thing once again.

It seems like the only motivation that I have for anything right now that keeps me going to school every day is that there is less than six months until graduation and then after that I can I can move on and do things in my life that I want to do and get away from the people that keep holding me back.    Going back to the fact though that I've run out of motivation, the only way I'm keeping up right now is doing just the bare minimum to pass, and that in itself just irritates me so much, that I'm allowing myself to do that.

This probably doesn't make any sense, but my brain just doesn't work like it should at times.  What I'm trying to say is that December is here now, and I want to make it worthwhile.  I'm going to be Blogging Every Day in December in hope that I'll be able to get back into blogging.  I'm also setting up a schedule to go to the gym so I can really focus on strengthening my muscles because all my leg muscles have gone back to being pieces of flimsy licorice.  I want December to be a good month, and a good way to end 2011.

Side note, I have a bit of a plan for December when it comes to blogging, so be ready for some structure of some sort. :)


days until ACT round 2: 9
days until I become an adult: 37
days until graduation: 169

10DYC: one picture (of me)

To be quite honest, there's not many pictures of just me, so I had few to chose from; but I chose this one to share because of a few reasons.  This was taken by one of my best friends last spring at my junior prom.  I hadn't planned on going since I had been out of school recovering from my hip replacement even though the principal said that I could attend.  One night, when a close group of my friends randomly showed up at my house at like nine, my parents actually hadn't minded, though I think they might have known about the impromptu visit, to visit me since I had been getting really tired of staying at home all the time though I was able to walk again by myself.  The dress that I'm wearing in the picture was actually my bridesmaid dress that I wore for my brother's wedding two years earlier.  I had it hanging in my room on my wall, and eventually it sparked conversation about prom; and as good friends they are, they ended up talking me into going to prom.  My mom and I searched all over Wichita for gold flats to wear with my dress since I couldn't quite wear heels. Although it was a pain in the ass, looking back it was fun.  Prom was one of the first times I really felt like a teen since I didn't have hip pain to worry about later, I wasn't worrying about later that night (I should say morning...) but living in the moment.  We had a huge group dinner at one of our friend's house, and the night in general was so much fun. I'm happy that my friends talked me into going, and that my mom urged me to go.  Plus, my surgeon and nurses were pushing me to go too. 

days until ACT: 27
days until the fall musical: 51
days until I become an adult: 105
days until graduation: 236

BEDA 17: sick already

I'm taking a break from my reading for English right now, not because it's difficult or anything, but because the words started blurring together and I got dizzy for a moment.  Among being slightly dizzy I've got a headache, earache, my nose is running like a flooding river, and my throat hurts like hell.  All I want to do is take a shower, and go to bed.  But I'm not, not now at least.  I promised myself and my mom that I was really going to make up for the last three years, especially last year since it was probably the worst year I had academically.

Honestly, nothing remotely interesting happened today. Except for the fact that I had my first "real" pop quiz. That I failed at miserably. But I don't think it was for a grade, just to show us we didn't know what we were doing on the homework from yesterday.  Oh, and I guess that using some senior privileges was fun...making the underclassmen move from our table; don't worry I was pretty nice about it, I mean, we were once in their shoes, and they still seem to be pretty shaken up over our prank we did Monday night.

The only other thing I could think about to talk about is Old Settlers, and I'll explain about the awesomeness that it is tomorrow seeing as looking at my computer screen is starting to make my headache five times worse.

Today was awesome because: they finally gave my computer log in information at school since they didn't have me on the list.

Until tomorrow.

days until the fall musical: 60
days until I become an adult: 142
days until graduation: 275
steps taken today: 3,456+

BEDA 16: random stuff

Honestly, I'm surprised I'm still awake and able to blog tonight. Though I got off a bit easier, seeing as I just answered a bunch of questions tonight. But regardless, they made me think and after the English homework I had to do when I got home from school, it was a tough task.  Today went pretty well, besides the fact that the office ladies gave me the wrong locker combination so I couldn't get in my locker at all today.  But it was alright, I found our head custodian, John, and we figured it all out. He was really super nice about it though I know he was probably at his wit's end with all the students he had to put up with today asking him to fix their lockers.  Even the homework wasn't too terribly bad, it just made me think a lot, though I think I made it more difficult than it was supposed to be, something I'm pretty good at doing it seems.

Anyway, I did the 15 Weird Questions Tag that Luke and Ingrid did yesterday for their VALA and Volgust videos. I decided it seemed like something interesting enough to do, so yeah. I kind of got lazy towards the end and didn't write much. Forgive me? It was a long day.

#1. What's a nickname only your family calls you?

Baby Red, or just red.  On my dad’s mother’s side of the family, a lot of the cousins all have red hair.  And we’ve all got a special nickname within the family that ends in Red.

#2. What's a weird habit of yours?

I almost always have to fall asleep on my right side. I don’t know why I do this, but ever since I had my first hip surgery, I’ve always fallen asleep on my right side.  It was a pain in the butt after my hip replacement when I couldn’t lie on my side.

#3. Do you have any weird phobias?

I fear being in water that I can’t touch the bottom of with my feet and still have my head above water. I explained some of this in an earlier post when I talked about how I think once I learn to swim that phobia/fear will go away.

#4. What's a song you secretly love to blast & belt out when you're alone?

I don’t secretly blast any song in particular, I always have music on, but I think if I had to choose it’d be Snape vs. Snape by Ministry of Magic or I’ve Got Nothing by Chartjackers

#5. What's one of your biggest pet peeves?

When people don’t use their turn signals when driving.  There’s a reason why cars have them.

#6. What's one of your nervous habits?

I just now realized this one, because I never really could think of anything I did when I’m nervous, but I chew on the inside of my bottom lip or the inside of my cheeks.

#7. What side of the bed do you sleep on?

I sleep in a twin, so I take up the entire thing. And when I used to sleep in my full bed I sprawled out across it.

#8. What was your first stuffed animal & it's name?

I don’t remember my first stuffed animal, mostly because they were from my early childhood. But the one I remember and still have to this day is a Ty Beanie Baby bear that’s multi-colored.  Her name is Mellow, and she’s been through every single surgery I’ve had done on my hip.

#9. What's the drink you always order at starbucks?

Cold coffee. In general, cold coffee. That’s the only way I’ll drink coffee.

#10. What's the beauty rule you preach, but never actually practice?

I always tell my friends who ask me how I keep my face from breaking out to wash their face twice a day, once in the morning and then again at night before bed…but I usually don’t wash my face twice a day.  Though, recently I have been getting better at it.

#11. Which way do you face in the shower?

I think I usually tend to face away from the shower heard, so the water is on my back.  Never really thought about it before now.

#12. Do you have any weird body 'skills?

None that I can think of…

#13. What's your favorite comfort food thats 'bad' but you love to eat it anyways?

I eat a lot of random food, but I don’t really have a comfort food.  Though I guess I should probably admit that if my mom bakes anything, I definitely have a feast. She makes the best cakes.

#14. What's a phrase or exclamation you always say?

I don’t think I have a phrase I say often, I say a lot of completely random nonsense all the time.  But my most recent one seems to be NO, 42, LEFT in response to almost anything. Just don’t ask why.

#15. Time to sleep!! What are you actually wearing?

T-shirt and an old pair of shorts. If it’s really cold I’ll wear a hoodie.

So yeah, nothing to extravagant or anything.  I tag all of you, to do this at some point, or not. Link us in the comments if you do decide to do it.

Today was awesome because:  For the first full day back at school since January, I have absolutely no pain whatsoever in my joints, and you have no idea how happy that makes me, I'm so emotional over it. Also, there's a sophomore in my Earth Space Science class that's a Whovian, and from the sounds of it, she's a pretty big fan, so I've got a feeling we'll be getting along quite well in that class.

days until senior year starts: 0 *dances* the first day was pretty freaking awesome

days until the fall musical: 61

days until I bcome an adult: 143

days until graduation: 276

steps taken today: 7867+

BEDA 15: head desk moments

Do you ever just get those moments where you want to head desk, or face palm? Gah, today has been a day completely full of those moments.  When I got home this morning from Marcella's I came into my room and threw my bag on my bed and looked at the massive basket of laundry I still have to put up from Saturday's laundry trip. "I'll do it tomorrow morning." I thought, I had other more pressing matters to attend to today than putting up laundry. And then I remembered that tomorrow morning I'd be freaking out about the fact that school was starting. *head desk*

About an hour and a half ago, my dad came in for lunch, and I asked him if I could come out this afternoon and clean my car out so I could use the shop vac to clean my floor boards.  He said it was alright, but asked if I could come out tomorrow morning instead.  I agreed, it'd be cooler in the morning...and then my mom stepped in, reminding both of us that school starts tomorrow. *head desk*

There's been a few other moments where I've just completely forgotten about what tomorrow is and keep trying to move plans to tomorrow, but it just doesn't work that way anymore. *sigh* I guess my procrastinating needs to stop ASAP.  But alas, as much as it sounds like I'm completely dreading tomorrow, and though I kind of am in a way, I'm not completely fighting it. It's just one of those head desking days today.

This is totally off topic and everything, but I want to congratulate Kathy on getting 50 followers yesterday (or whenever it actually happened).  I definitely recommend heading over if you have the time to her blog which can be found here and poke around for a bit.  I always enjoy reading her blog posts, and who knows, maybe you will too.

Today is awesome because: I finally ordered Chameleon Circuit's newest album, Still Got Legs through DFTBA Records.

days until senior year starts: 1
days until I become an adult: 144
days until graduation: 277
steps taken today: 1202+

BEDA 10: omfg, it's hoodie wearing type weather

Last night, after I stayed up past midnight coloring random coloring pages I printed off of the internet, I went to bed with my joints hurting...again.  Normally, when there's a chance of rain my left knee hurts, but last night, all of my joints were hurting.  My knees, ankles, shoulders, back, hip(s) sometimes I feel like my right hip (the prothsetic one) hurts like my left one when it comes to arthritic pain...I knew between my arthritic rain prediction method and the weather reports, that it was going to finally rain big time last night.

And that it did.  It's been raining for nearly twelve hours straight now with little breaks here and there.  But let me tell you, it's so nice to finally have a good rain.  Just a bit ago, I was watching the noon news on a local television station and they too were surprised when the temperature gauge said 69 degrees.  I knew it was kind of cold out today, or at least compared to our normal triple digit days, but this basically calls for wearing a hoodie.

I actually haven't been outside yet today, but I can predict it's pretty nice out there, compared to our normal weather this summer, I bet it feels like were in a different country or something. I actually kind of want to go on a walk around the neighborhood and soak in some of this rare nice weather. Oh and speaking of walking, I ordered something online for the first time ever on Sunday, a really nice inexpensive pedometer.  It should be arriving tomorrow in the mail and I'm pretty freaking excited.

Anyway...this BEDA post sounded like an awkward first date, didn't it? Oh well, I deal with awkward pretty well, it only gets awkward if you make it awkward.

Today is awesome because: obviously my answer is because it's been/still raining.

days until senior year starts: 6
days until I become an adult: 149
days until graduation: 282

BEDA 4: eleven days to go

There's eleven days left until school starts, and it's really starting to sink in.  Between going to enroll today at school and actually getting my time table that looks okay for the most part and organizing my school supplies in accordance to said time table, it has definitely started to hit me that school is starting again.  Whether or not I fully comprehend that it's senior year, I'm not for sure. I'm sure I'll still forget that I'm a senior through most of the school year, I mean, I still feel like a freshman half the time though I have absolutely no idea...

At the beginning of every school year I get crazy organized. Everything has it's place and it's use and that's that.  Two weeks into school it eventually goes from "neatly organized" to "messy, chaotic organized" which usually involves my locker and school bag to be a total mess. I'm hoping this year though I'll actually keep to an organizational system since I'm taking several classes that I can't afford to muck up in or I just won't graduate, and that's something I want to avoid doing at all costs.

I decided this morning what to do about my big girl decision regarding my history and forensics classes.  I decided that since I can work on and still be apart of the forensics team from outside of the class I decided to give it up for my history course.  I did this mostly because I know I won't be able to keep up with a full school day and have that extra class to worry about.

Eleven days till school starts also means that I need to figure out if my alarms will actually work well enough to get me up on time or not.  I've been having a hard time getting my normal alarm clock to work and on top of that, my phone alarm won't work when I need it. It's been really frustrating me since I've been attempting to get up at six every morning like I'll have to do when school starts.

I feel like there's several more things to do before these eleven days are up, but there really isn't.  All I really need to do is get some stuff sorted out for the fall musical so I won't have to worry about it once school starts, but that's a whole other story considering the flash drive I swore it was located on is no where to be found after I went every single folder on that damn thing.  I worked really hard on that thing, and I'll be completely honest in saying that if I don't find it, I'm not going to bother. Although, eventually I will redo the entire thing just for the purpose of I always have to be organized when it comes to costume and make-up designing...


Well, there you go, another random blog post that was basically just me babbling on about school.

BEDA 3: big girl decisions

Tomorrow I get to meet my mom at school to enroll for my senior year of high school.  And let me tell you I'm extremely excited, I've been waiting to be a senior for nearly four years now and it's finally MY time.  I'm ready to get to finally start making decisions that will ultimately end up affecting my future because up until now it has always seemed that there's that one thing or someone who is holding me back from really going for what my heart and gut are telling me to do.

My mom just came home on her lunch break and before she left she came into my room and sat on my bed.  She told me that one of the school counselors, the one that I worked a lot with last year when we were trying to figure out my schooling situation when I had my hip replaced second semester; she said she had an enjoyable conversation with her.

When I found out that this school counselor had called my mom this morning, I was surprised, because I thought she would have been really busy with day one of enrollment being today.  I knew though once my mom told me she had called that this couldn't be good.

Mom started with telling me that she was just making sure that I would be back at the school for sure this year, yadayadayada.  She had asked my mom if I was ready to go back to school, yadayadayada.  Then she told my mom that I had to either finish my history class online that I didn't finish from last semester, before Thanksgiving (our fall holiday basically) or I had to give up forensics second semester so I could take both the English III class I need and American Studies.

WHAT?!

And of course, my mom is leaving it completely up to me to decide, she didn't even give me her opinion when I asked, she just told me it's my choice.  I mean, one side, I prefer to take the American Studies class at the school then finish it online, just for the fact that it's better in basically ALL aspects and I prefer to learn, especially when it comes to history, by lectures, not reading a never ending assignment that doesn't even go chronologically on the computer.  Then there's the fact that I've been really involved with our NFL (National Forensics League) chapter and I'm really excited for the forensics season this year because last year I didn't get to compete because I had my hip replaced.  And though I'm sure my coach will allow me to participate from outside of class, it just makes things easier if I were in the class.  But obviously, I have to chose one or the other.

As for right now, I don't know what I want to do. I think I might need to sleep on it tonight and see how I feel about it tomorrow, because honestly, there's pros and cons to both sides of this.  I'm sure though, whatever I do decide to do that I'll be fine with it, because honestly, I just want to get through senior year and graduate. That's my goal.  And I know it'll all work itself out eventually.

BEDA 1: august already?

It's nearing 11 in the evening as I'm writing this, and if it hadn't been for the thought of checking my YouTube subscriptions to see what was new since I was out all evening, I wouldn't have seen a VEDA video which in turn wouldn't have reminded me that it is in fact the first of August which means it's BEDA time.

Honestly, I'm still trying to grasp that fact that it's already AUGUST. It seems like it should be the start of June, not August.  I mean, I go to enroll for senior year of high school on Thursday and I start school in like two weeks.  It's completely nuts for me to understand right now though I don't understand why.

I'm actually really really REALLY looking forward to school this year.  Partially because it's senior year and I'm ready for the next steps in my life, even if it means that I'm officially becoming an adult and having to make big important decisions on my own, I'm ready for it; and I'm ready for school in general.  I actually really enjoy going to school, I love to learn new things, I think that's why I do so well in school (if only I did my homework more often) because I enjoy learning and I don't try to fight the process like other kids might.

Out of all the things this next school year offer, I'm especially excited about the upcoming debate season.  Mainly because in debate I'm always learning something new whether it's from a new evidence card that I find, or if it's from hearing other people's arguments, I seem to also be absorbing things; though unfortunately sometimes I don't remember half the things because there's so much to it.  Debate holds a really special place in my heart, and it's not just because I get to argue without getting in trouble, it's because with debate you really have to work at it.  It's not something that comes naturally to everyone when they first try it.  There's a lot of things that make up debate that you've got to understand before you can even debate, and you usually don't understand any of it until you're stuck in the middle of a debate round and you've got to use it.  Then it all makes sense and it all clicks.  Debate really makes your brain work, and I really think it teaches you a lot of skills that you have to teach yourself.

Anyway, after all that talk about me not understanding how it's August already, talk about school and of debate, I just want to give you a small run down about BEDA. If you don't know what BEDA is it stands for Blog Every Day August (or April, but in this case it's August).  Basically, it's exactly what it sounds like, you blog every day of the month.  I'm not going to try and be one of those people who plans out their blog posts for BEDA because I KNOW without a doubt that once school starts I won't stick to it.  So you're probably going to end up reading a lot of random things throughout this month, and I hope you stick along for the ride.

come on brain

I'm in one of those funks.  The type of funks that you don't really want to do anything.  Well, actually, I take that back.  I have a long list of things I want to accomplish and work on, but alas, my brain of mine won't put in the effort to work.

For example, I had attempted on several several occasions the last few days to write a blog post about something some what important and relevant.  But my brain basically shut off on me a couple sentences into the post.  I fear my brain is finally getting back at me for over loading it in the fall. I mean, if I was my brain, I would revolt about now.  It's the crucial part of the school year...even if I do take my classes online.  But everything right now effects senior year and if I graduate on time or not.

The only thing that my brain has really permitted me to doing is watching stuff on Netflix, granted though, I'm not entirely wasting my time away watching pointless movies. I mean, the vast majority, and I'm talking about like 99% of the stuff I've been watching has been documentaries. The other 1% has been a mixture of things from Doctor Who to Greek  to dramatic movies.  Just yesterday, I watched three documenties and a movie that I'll most likely end up watching again today.

Such a pointless post.