To keep the story some what simple, things aren't as happy as I sometimes make them appear in my life. I have always been someone to make the best of things and make people think that I'm a happy person no matter what the situation or circumstance is. I'm tired of just settling for something when in reality it doesn't make me happy.
I'm at a place now where I'm confused, frustrated, upset and feeling lonely. I have no idea what I'm doing in most aspects and as I've realized God's calling for me isn't in the current field of study I'm working on, I feel like no one is going to be supportive of this new change.
Of the few friends I've discussed these things with in the last few days, none of them have seemed to be very supportive. They've basically tried telling me that it's a crock of BS and that I need to get over it. Here's the thing though, I respect their opinions but I'm tired of settling for the things that don't make me happy as a human being. When I have little to not motivation or drive to be here, then clearly I am meant to be some place else.
I guess, in the end of today's events, I just want friendships that are going to support me with whatever I decide to do. I've always tried to be the supportive friend hoping that one day when I really the support that my friends would be there to provide it.
In the end, I know that I can always rely on God. It's taken me months to finally accept my calling and the direction He wants me to go in, and I know that He's going to be there until the very end.
- Jessie
1 comment:
Don't be too hard on yourself, MANY young adults experience a period of depression during the ages of 17-22 while the brain changes and we deal with the transition from dependant to independant. It doesn't make it any easier, just know that it is pretty normal and won't last forever.
It is great that you turn to God to help you with your search. I like to list things that I'm grateful for and spend time in nature when I'm feeling overwhelmed.
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